Guilty Sleep

I have been affected more recently because of the near end of the semester by what I'm calling guilty sleep. I procrastinate all day to get my work done and of course since I am a procrastinator it does not get done. When it comes time to hit the 'old dusty trial' I am struck by the guilt Chevy Impala SS and it leaves me feeling that I have do something productive before I can go to sleep. I try to fight this mystical vehicles power over my ability to fall asleep but it is a dark magic that I cannot defeat. So, I end up staying up unneccessarily late, being extremely tired the next day BUT I do get something complete.
Why, oh why do I have this late night guilt trips? If anyone out there is a doctor or just smart, can you tell me how to stop having this mystic guilt car from hitting me each night.
Please avoid obvious solutions like 'just do your work and do not procrastinate' because that is definetely not an option. That is like telling a smoker to just stop one day. I have had years of practice and success as a procrastinator and will not be persuaded by sleep to end my relationship with this mistress.
So I must redefine my request, can a fellow procastinator help me out with an answer to my guilty sleep problem so that I can indeed defeat this dark master and get to sleep so that I may continue the next day to procrastinate once again.
Thanks

I Wish I Was In...

With all the recent events at the Wall and Halloween tomorrow I am being reminded of many youthful memories of classic cartoons, movies, bands and characters and I have been thinking "Wouldn't it have been cool if I was IN that movie/band/show". I actually say that words SLASH when I talk about multiple categories.So I decided I should probably make a list of some of these things I wish I was in..So here I go

TV SHOW (Not Cartoon)

THE X-FILES
Not only is this one of my favourite television shows but I feel like whenever I watch it that I AM ACTUALLY there solving the unexplainable phenomena with Mulder and Skully. I Want To Believe, F that, I want to be in your show. Imagine walking around with the incredibly sexy Agent Mulder and even sexier Agent Skully (not using real names because it will ruin the fantasy) and seeing aliens and sasquatch and the El CHUPACABRA in real life. Working for the FBI and having a pretty much ‘do whatever the F you want' status in the USA. Having a gun; Yes! With all these crazy unsolved mysteries being solved right in front of you, imagine all the amazing stories you would have to tell your friends or at bars or as pick up lines. One other great quality would be that they got shot all the time or in near death situations and come out the very next week with perfect hair and scar less bodies to do the same thing over again. I would also like to see E.T. if possible.

TV SHOW (Cartoon)LOONEY TUNES
Most people would say Ninja Turtles or Batman or some other popular show back in the day but I say "Nay". With TMNT you would have to live in a sewer and hang around a rat which I’m sure has at least Malaria or the Black Plague (why is he always sick?). With Batman it would be cool to fight crime and live with a millionaire but Batman is a dick and as much fun as the other stuff would be eventually I would wait till I was in his Will then OJ his tightass when he wasn’t looking.Looney Tunes I think would be the coolest because I’m sure most of you have seen Space Jam and there is actually proof that being a Looney Tune would be badass; just ask MJ. The ability to contort your body however you like, impervious to pain and pretty much life ever lasting. That is something I would love to be a part of. I would also love to bring an end to poverty and hunger by being the long lost partner to Willey Coyote and help him finally catch that Son of a B Roadrunner. That Coyote has eaten anything in like 50 years, WTF! Is WB promoting eating disorders?

MOVIE

Peter Pan (Robin Williams one or classic one)

Let me explain. I thought very hard about this one and would like to list all possible phenomenal qualities that would come from being part of this movie, or more specifically in Never Land.
-Young forever
-You can fly
-Don’t need to get a job
-Your mentor/boss is Peter Pan
-There are mermaids
-You can travel back and forth from the real world to Never Land so you can still watch The Office on Thursday nights.
-You get to plays games and fool around all day every day except when you have to fight pirates.
-There’s cliché pirates!

It seems to me like this is the ultimate fantasy and I would love to be apart of this some day. So Mr. Pan if you read this my window is on the 3rd floor of Governors Residence at Nipissing University so come look me.

BAND

U2

I don’t even really need to explain this one but I will try. A band that has been become a household name in a POSTIVE sense and has won more Grammy’s than any one else, have enough money and fame to do whatever they like; or whatever Bono likes. To even be in the band that Bono is in makes you infamous. The ability to make classics whether hard rocking like New Year’s Day or softer ones like With Or Without You. The fact that they aren’t into hard core drugs or alcohol means they will probably all live for a long time and enjoy all the benefits that come with be a Rock God. Meeting world leaders, celebrities and sport figures on a monthly basis is also a nifty feature I would like to tap into. I’m sure there are many other great features that would come with being in U2 but some of them I probably cannot even comprehend.

So those are my choices. Isn’t having an imagination fun, I feel like I almost was in some of these things.

My quick 'E' fix

The wonders of the internet can appeal to pretty much any persons interests and for some reason if it can't, then that person can make a webpage about their interests and therefore it will.
This 'E' I write about is far from new but something I feel I am slowly getting addicted too as the weeks progress. I have had a run in with it in the past, it wasnt the best experience so I kicked the habit as fast as I could and have been clean of it for going on 4 years.
This 'E' is E-bay.

How many times have I found myself looking through other people's unwanted items that I myself DONT want either. There is always that initial item that I open up the webpage to check out to see if I could find it at a reasonable price but once my search is complete I find myself satisfied with my results and wanting to find more.
It reminds me of a garage sale but with glamour shots and without the lingering dusty aroma.

Fortunately I almost all of the time talk myself out of spending the money on old action figures or sports memorbelia. What is it about an attractive intital 0.99c bid offer that can persuade users into believing that "I really would love to have a used set of 1990 x-men trading cards?" My saviour in this constant battle with Ebay is the fact that I do not have a Credit Card because I do not trust myself with money. I wont even go to the mall half the time with my debit card or with over $20 in cash because I'm sure that I will find something in some store that catches my fancy and can make me believe that "Yes, I do need a $45 Zippo lighter even though I dont smoke."

During my darkest hours of search I will try to find friends that have Ebay accounts or credit cards and get them to bid on the items for me. I truly weep for the day when I finally decide that I trust myself with money and get that Credit Card because I'm sure I will have got one for the simple fact that I have talked myself into it and one of the reasons was to get something off Ebay.

Family Holidays?

Its about that time again for everyone to go home for Nip's first reading week and I find myself again having mixed feelings. The opportunity to not go to class and not feel guilty about it is great and the food is something that no university student can deny, but still I find myself at an unease.

I have not had a very hard life, as one of my new favourite quotes from The Office states "This is the hardest thing I've had to do in my entire life....I have not had a very hard life" refering to a diet that the office was having to win vacation days, but I find that I would rather stay here by myself then go home for several days and visit my family.

I love my family tons but I feel like I have reached the point in my life where I don't need them around as much and I dont cling to them like I once did. To create a better picture, I feel i'm at the point already where most of everyones parents are at where they dont want to see there parents anymore either (maybe once a year) and they probably only call a couple times a month.

Ill be completely honest, they pay my tuition. I never asked for it but why would I say no? The past 4 years it feels like when I go back home that I have an obligation to be grateful and bend over backwards to do absolutely anything that comes to mind. I dont mind helping out and doing things that my parents cannot do anymore (lift things, pretty much anything labour intensive) but it feels like a have 3 months of chores to make up for in the 4-5 days im home.
Some might say that 'I'm earning my tuition' but I would rather take the OSAP and work my way out like most everyone else here than have to deal with the restrictions that come with the money.
Wow, this changed really fast from Thanksgiving break to a rant about tuition. Ill try to get back on topic.

I sometimes envy those that have the balls to say whatever they want to whomever they want. I unfortunately am not one of those people but would like to be someday. My holidays would like to be spend among my friends and my girl. I spend more time in North Bay than I do at home and I dont miss it there what so ever, so why should I go back? The money? Is that the reason for week(s) of unhappiness during holidays and summer time? Has it been worth it for the past four years, to put it in a cliche, 'to put a price on happiness'? I dont know about anyone else but I feel as though I made the wrong choice. There can anyways be money but time is more valueable.

Before I get anymore depressed I just want to end it and say Happy Thanksgiving and enjoy the break.

University: An educational or social investment

As my time here winds down this fourth year at Nipissing University I have looked back to my first year and realized that the most valued knowledge that I will take from our great school is the lessons I have learned from being part of the University atmosphere as opposed to the lessons learned in the classroom.

The education offered at our University is not being attacked in any way, I think we offer great programs and that our Professors are as good or better than other Universities (as is seen in McLean's every year) but I feel that I have learned more about people, life and myself through experiencing a diverse range of social aspects throughout University than reading and studying it through books.

When I mention Nipissing I am writing about the building as well as its residences, associated clubs and organizations, North Bay student housing, the amazing students here and to generalize; the atmosphere attached to it. I have been involved in a wide range of extracurricular situations and clubs closely tied to Nipissing ranging from living in residence, playing intramural and extramural sports, Frosh and having jobs through the University. I am sure that other people have great experiences and lessons they have learned outside the classroom from attending Nipissing such as a relationships, living alone or with roommates, social interactions at parties or the bar, how to balance all your commitments along with the schoolwork or have realized something about themselves or people by simply hanging out with friends.

The importance of going to class and obtaining good grades has not been lost but seems to have taken a back seat to recognizing that this is only a small portion of my life. My experiences by being at Nipissing have helped me realize my true passions in life, improved my social skills and has given me confidence in myself.

In conclusion, I feel that I have learned more about myself, the world and life through engaging myself in extracurricular activities outside the classrooms here at Nipissing and that I will continue to do so. So as my topic stated; when you think of your Nipissing experience does the first thing come to mind your educational achievements or have you realized that it is so much more than a potential plaque on a wall? Has this experienced changed you? Do you feel that you would have turned out the same if you would have gone straight to the workplace or a different path the past 3-5 years?
I'd like to know.